I´m sure you´ve heard of the anglo-saxon and the continental traditions within science, see, we are torn apart and divided in two.
The enligsh like their numbers, growth, efficiency, they invented capitalism. The europeans (used to) like their humanism, they invented socialism and here we are: mututally exclusive right down to the core of our history and tradition. Simply put.
I´m an anarchist. I don´t believe in the state. I believe in the people.
You´ll find some great american anarchists but let´s be realistic, it´s not like the state will ever disolve itself, it´s not like the system will let go freely, it´s too big to fail. Which is why we ran. Only to realize that you can´t. Nevermind (is the credo of my generation), even the anarchists have lost hope. American or European, Asian, African or Australian.
Sometimes I feel hope despite of the obvious, sometimes I feel unity, another kind of unity, something that does not divide, conquer and rule, no, a different kind of unity, sometimes I find that unity in the machine.
I find it in nature.
At university I quickly identified with the continental traditions within Psychology.
I´m a crying punk (raw predator capitalism still seems so unsofisticated to me, yuppie bastards!), statistics and meassurements of personality, developmental stages and HR goals just didn´t feel right: let´s explore the multifactteted human mind! I said to myself. Besides I like my Rimbaud and my Baudelaire, my existentialism, I like classical music, I fancy deep conversation underneath naked light bulbs sitting on uncomfortable chairs, talking about the revolution, we´re just talking.
I like to ride a bike. I wear dresses. And glasses.
I think about death a lot.
But I like the English too.
It began with the internet. First machine I ever got was blue. I used it to talk with the english on my computer, late nights, for years. Then forums came alone and after a while: subcategories and places of specific interests, I blogged even but then came social media WROOOM, a knock out, we were run over by a thoussand wild horses and freight trains.
Everywhere I went I liked the English (two simple rules: never talk about guns plus don´t swear and curse so much)
What I particullary liked about the English was the fact that they were doing something more than just talking, they would go to the streets, something seemed to be happening. It seemed so.
That was a while ago.
Maybe they forgot that fighting empires is what they do.
The machine was a great tool though. Man, I´ve learned so much! I´ve fallen in love on the internet more times than I can count. I´ve met soulsisters and brothers, I´ve had revelations, my whole life changed because of the internet.
World tribe. Global village. I have/had/will have high hopes for the internet because it seemed to be able to connect us DESPITE the fact that we are torn in two. Maybe we could be whole again. Strike back!
You wonder why I tell you this?
I tell you this because I found our ipod the other day. Why is this important? Because then we get to do this
We get to hang out and make doughnuts while listening to music.
Winter is swelled like that. Because of the snow there´s not a whole lot we can do on the outside- so we work on the inside.
We COULD take down trees and prepare the firewood for next year, we COULD cut down poles and rafts for fencing, we COULD… but we won´t.
I had 12 hours of sleep tonight. Plenty of time to think about the divide.
Sleeping, working on the inside, making doughnuts, thinking about machines, listening to that universal language….
This is the second last jar of lard. When Debby and Alexis butchered their pigs we bought some of them and made a lot of bacon (oh, man, really, that bacon!!!!) and lard. They´re not having pigs this seasson so we probably will.
We eat really healthy. We had porrige for breakfast and fish for lunch, it´s not like we eat cakes all of the time, it´s just that I really enjoy the setup: I repeat; sleeping, working on the inside, making doughnuts, thinking about machines, listening to that universal language….
The english invented the doughnuts which I think is another reasson to like them. Actually I can think of a hundred reassons to like the english, me and the english have had such good times. I thank the machine for that, I don´t hate it, I told you, but I want to use it for the good. Listening to music is good. Connecting cross empire barbwire is good.
This is one of my favorite songs. I probably heard 20 times today. Agnes is Danish. I make a point out of pointing it out. She´s also a classicaly trained pianist. Another thing: you know what they did in my country? They straightened out all of the rivers, it would be more efficient they said, they said agriculture needed it, it would be better for our export, they said.
That´s why…. Oh My God I See How Everything Is Torn In The River Deep
All of us.